Tonight my heart is heavy
Heavier than it’s been since the day we stopped talking
My head feels like it’s been dunked in water and I can’t breathe
It’s like a brick has been placed on my chest
I read a line from a poem a few days ago "I’m not fine and I wanted to tell you about it"
Today I was not fine and I wanted to tell you about it
On Eid day I wanted to tell you good you looked in your Kaftan
How the teal coloured fabric highlighted your skin
You looked like a true yoruba demon and I wanted to tease you about it
It’s harder tonight than other nights, the hurt I feel wants to blow me away like a dandelion fluff in a hurricane
You must think me cruel, heartless and cold and a liar
But it’s your fuck up that has brought us to this point
In time I will heal and the heartache that I feel in your absence will disappear as quick cold ashes blown away by the wind